Today has been a day of mixed emotions, indecisiveness and a time for inner exploration. It was with a heavy heart that I watched my timeline fill with the jubilations, excitement and the joy of those attending this weekends BritMum’s Live Blogging Conference in London. It’s an event that I’ve read so much about over the last few months and as my journey into blogging has progressed, it’s one that I’ve desperately wanted to attend. Unfortunately financial issues and a lack of childcare, didn’t allow for me to go and I couldn’t help but feel a little bit envious at those who did.
For much of the day I’ve been a silent spectator, popping on to the live stream of the Britmum’s event every now and then, dwelling in self-pity, tinged with a hint of loneliness. Oh to be part of that happy crowd of people – to make lasting friendships and to put blog names to the right faces. It felt like being excluded from a party that everyone else has been invited to, or the child in the class who turns up wearing uniform on a non uniform day, purely to hide the fact that underneath it all they are too ashamed of their own poverty.
When the time came for the Brilliance In Blogging Awards (BiBs), my mood began to change. There on the stage were men and women who through their blogs had been recognised, people like you, me, your next-door neighbour or the people you live with. For one night, they had the opportunity to shine and how beautifully they shone. One particular moment that had a touching effect on me, was when Mummy Barrow, Annie Spratt and Penny Alexander of Team Honk, asked everyone who had ever helped in some small way to raising the awareness of their Red Nose Day mission, to stand up. At that moment, I truly felt the spirit of the blogging community, a community that I am part of, however quiet I am. I felt proud that in my own way I had contributed to that immense occasion, that being unknown and an oddity didn’t matter because in the grand scheme of things, we are all very similar.
Now I realise what it means to be a parent blogger. It’s not the freebies, the events, the popularity or the awards that are important. It’s the amazing and overwhelming sense of community that you can feel for people you have never even met, people who have helped you either through their blogs, a comment thoughtfully left or through their personal words of wisdom. For me, that is what blogging is all about and I can hold my head up high and unashamedly call myself part of that community.